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Mark Wilkens's avatar

Thank you, your writing always reminds me of what’s real and natural during turbulent times of artifice

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First Sunday of Lent a few weeks back (RC calendar), I feasted. Big time. Like, i feasted hard. I ate a full bag of chocolate covered strawberries. Later got tipsy on Pontatlier-Anis. Chocolate, strawberries and alcohol are all histamine liberators. What the heck is that everyone just thought? Histamine liberators, when paired in a "perfect storm" of stress, along with underlying digestive issues, let loose a flurry of histamine thru the system that renders one either covered with hives, or wiped out in a state of extreme fatigue mixed with the foggiest of brains. It also maxes out the nerves, the whole system is suddenly wired for panic, mast cells (white blood cells) get busy putting out the fires (especially, it seems, where there aren't any fires to put out), which sends everyone else into a state of alarm too. Great way to start my Lent. The best, actually. Truly. I feel I've been offered a chance to start again. From scratch. Back at ground zero. I've been here before so many times in the last 14 years. But never with legs of faith as strong as this (I say with as much holy terror and humility as I can muster, very aware the false one is listening and eagerly waiting for the right moment to pounce). I do feel hope in a way i never have. 14 years. Most of that time I've been screaming at God, WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?? Of course I've been doing it to myself. Working on inner family systems therapy has been a great help. Working on 12-step programs too (I do well with Adult Children of Alcoholics and Dysfunctional Families). That's all I have to say, other than to ask for your prayers. Prayers that I only increase in faith and dependency on Him. I would also love to ask what your prayer intentions are. I'd happily lift you up in prayer for whatever you bring to the table.

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